Here i Go Again....

Here i go again.. haha.. hmm.. today i had to set my goal settings for this month of september.. haha.. kinda stress to think but its challenging as i did not tried before to do goal settings in my life.. this is my first time.. i joined a company in business stuff.. what i wanna say abt dis company is, they taught me alot in lyfe changing.. how to be a better and responsible man.. first of all i would like to thanks my syg Miss Adeline Sim a.k.a Adawiyah haha.. cos she brought me in this company.. and secondly i would like to thank Mr Faiz, Mr Alfian, Mr Phillip and Ms Jeanette cos they had taught me how to work in this company.. they are very dedicated leader.. Thank you all who have brought and taught me.. Thanks once again..

Second part of my story.. this is a sad story.. yesterday i brought my prospect for a talk at my company ofiz.. my prospect is a gal.. an ex-colleague of mine when we are Long John Silver's still..that was back in 2005.. Brought her down yesterday because she's kinda interested in knowing the business that i am doing.. then she bought a can of coke drink.. and i met my syg at smoking are at our ofiz.. den we about to go in to ofiz, my prospect offered me her coke as she can't finish it up.. i accept the coke RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY SYG.. She really dissapointed in me.. its very dumb and stupid of me to accept the coke, cos i knew dat i cant drink gassy drinks, and my syg knew that i cant drink gassy drink.. wah im in a deepshit.. and the other thing is she jealous when im shared the straw.. wah i lyke stupid lor.. FUCKING STUPID!!

Syg im sorie for making u really dissapointed in me.. im sori if i made u jealous.. a billions of sorry.. syg dun think abt it anymore.. iwill not drink gassy drink nimore.. now i can feel the pain in my stomach..its very uneasy..
i wont drink in front of u again.. must learn how to say no oredi.. syg forgive me..

third part of my story..
Damn Fucked up..
i cant make any appt lor for next week.. its lyke no one picks up my call..
what happen to my frens all..?? did they die of unnatural death..
even my tagged friends all are not online..
haiyo... what had happen..
what a day today.. frm hospital, rush to mosque, rush back home.. but d results that i get is F9.. not convincing for me today.. sayang, i cant make any appt for next week le..how now? im confused and stress..


last but not least..
i cant wait for my CQD Course at SOC to finish on 25th Sept.. haha..lolx
its a very tiring day for us.. evriday at eihter HTA or Mandai Training Camp..
HTA is ok coz d firing range are all indoor.. unlike Mandai Training camp, their firing range are outdoor..
and it is under the hot sun..
What The FUCK!! furthermore we are fasting..
fasting le.. spare a thought la for us.. haha.. lolx!!
evridae dehydration le if at mandai.. wa lao..
den on 25th sept we ends our course, but on 26th sept, we have to deploy for th F1 race..
what the Hell..!!! cant giv us some rest...
Shitman!! i hoping for at least 2 days off or wat..

Btw, this month is Hari Raya.. what a month man.. enjoys.. but bcos of the CQD course, my target to hav an appointment is all like tight up.. hope this course ends and i can cpncentrate on both police and my business..

Syg i miss u alot le.. when can i c u again?? i wana disturb u.. i wana tease u.. haha..lolx..
miss ur hugs, ur smile, ur laughter, ur cooking, ur kiss, ur caress and when you look me in the eyes..syg whenever u say we are like husband and wife, i noe its a joke from u.. but how i wish that its true.. how i wish i cud assure that u are mine..
just now in the morning, when u say u never see ur hairul for 3 weeks, cos u keep seeing me, i felt jealous..
i noe i got no right to hav dat feelings..
furthermore u said that u wan to be fair, to start seeing hairul for 3 weeks.. and stop seeing me for 3 weeks..
its kind a heart throbbing.. my heart aches.. my mood change.. i know u got the freedom to choose anyone..
but i......................argh...!! FUCK!!.............. i noe i selfish.. i just wan u to see me no other guys..!! BUT I CANT!!!!! sobz...

syg..i love you.. hope you understand my feelings..